Tuesday, October 26, 2004

Burnout

I've been feeling lonely all day.

I sold my computer desk, so now there's a big empty spot in the corner of my living room.

I went back to work today after a one-week holiday. The headache returned. The pain in my shoulders and the back of my neck came back. I realize now that 100% of the stress in my life is caused by my workplace. Well, maybe 95% workplace, 5% finances.

My male kitten has pneumonia.

So, yeah, I'm kind of depressed. Feeling a little down. And I'm cold. My feet are really cold, like right down to the bone. :(

I'm so overwhelmed by all the problems at my workplace. Note that I'm talking about my workplace -- not my job. My job is okay, if not a little boring. I'm definitely ready for new challenges, but that will have to wait until something at a higher level is posted. I should definitely work on my resume.

My workplace is in shambles. It's a house of cards just waiting for a breath of wind. The manager is a complete idiot. She's alienated everyone and they're all crying on my shoulder. So I have my own stress, and I'm trying to manage everyone else's stress. Oh, please, let there be a job posted this week!

I figure I shouldn't feel lonely because I'm so surrounded by people. My family, my co-workers, my friends....why do I feel lonely this first week back on the job? Maybe it's not loneliness as much as a sense of loss. Or vacancy. Something's missing...I don't know what. It's definitely time for me to move on. I just feel....drained.

2 Comments:

At 1:03 PM, Blogger Asrai said...

Awww honey, I wish I could make things better for you. You're such a loving soul, full of love and kindness, you don't need the weight of the world on your shoulders. Here...let me help you carry this load. My friend, it's always better with someone who will walk with you during your down times. I'm here for you, always. I hope your kitten feels better soon! Much love and *smoochies*

 
At 12:17 AM, Blogger frisky said...

*smoochies* and *headbutts*
Thanks, hun. :)

 

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